Monday, April 19, 2004
Wow...
Havent been too talkative, huh?
I learned something really big today, might not come as a suprise to the people out there, but it kinda enlightened me.
People who kill themselves arent selfish.
Infact they are kinda the opposite.
When people are depressed, they turn to others for comfort, maybe someone who might beable to relate to their situation, or just someone that will listen, thinking that maybe as they voice their problems, they might hear something that they hadnt before.
But when you are in my case, it isnt that simple. I have depression, no surpise, I wanted to talk to someone recently, but they pretty much called me selfish. I felt like shit. I wanted someone to talk to, but all of a sudden im a selfish prick (they didnt say that verbatum).
This leads me to believe that my situation is unimportant and doesnt pertain to anything or anyone around me. Furthermore, it leads me to think that no one can relate to my situation and makes me think I'm a hopeless case.
As she signs off in the middle of our conversation, sorry had to get off topic for a sec.
But yeah, hopelesness leads to sorrowfulness and eventually depression, depression is a big killer in this country. Lots of people suffer, I happen to be one.
Someone is trying to tell me that self acceptance gets you everywhere in life. I find that very hard to believe, self acceptance doesnt get you friends or into clubs or onto teams. Some shit to use as an example.
Oh well, point is, next time you see someone talking about death, dont tell them they are selfish, talk to them, make a friend, they will definately appreciate it, depressed people usually just want a person to talk to, someone who can relate and feel their pain.
Trust me, I will thank you for it and so will they.
Love and peace.
Havent been too talkative, huh?
I learned something really big today, might not come as a suprise to the people out there, but it kinda enlightened me.
People who kill themselves arent selfish.
Infact they are kinda the opposite.
When people are depressed, they turn to others for comfort, maybe someone who might beable to relate to their situation, or just someone that will listen, thinking that maybe as they voice their problems, they might hear something that they hadnt before.
But when you are in my case, it isnt that simple. I have depression, no surpise, I wanted to talk to someone recently, but they pretty much called me selfish. I felt like shit. I wanted someone to talk to, but all of a sudden im a selfish prick (they didnt say that verbatum).
This leads me to believe that my situation is unimportant and doesnt pertain to anything or anyone around me. Furthermore, it leads me to think that no one can relate to my situation and makes me think I'm a hopeless case.
As she signs off in the middle of our conversation, sorry had to get off topic for a sec.
But yeah, hopelesness leads to sorrowfulness and eventually depression, depression is a big killer in this country. Lots of people suffer, I happen to be one.
Someone is trying to tell me that self acceptance gets you everywhere in life. I find that very hard to believe, self acceptance doesnt get you friends or into clubs or onto teams. Some shit to use as an example.
Oh well, point is, next time you see someone talking about death, dont tell them they are selfish, talk to them, make a friend, they will definately appreciate it, depressed people usually just want a person to talk to, someone who can relate and feel their pain.
Trust me, I will thank you for it and so will they.
Love and peace.
Friday, February 20, 2004
20 days later....
Sunday, February 01, 2004
*Sigh*
Nothin to report on here. I dunno what to tell you anymore. Its like I cant move. Something good happens, and then something shitty happens. Nothing can progress. FCAT in a few weeks. That means standardized testing and stuff. I did a little better than average last year, but it wasnt my best score. What else? Um, nothin much. I ate 6 chicken wings and a half a gallon of pepsi in 25 minutes yesterday. Sweet. Peace.
Nothin to report on here. I dunno what to tell you anymore. Its like I cant move. Something good happens, and then something shitty happens. Nothing can progress. FCAT in a few weeks. That means standardized testing and stuff. I did a little better than average last year, but it wasnt my best score. What else? Um, nothin much. I ate 6 chicken wings and a half a gallon of pepsi in 25 minutes yesterday. Sweet. Peace.
Monday, January 19, 2004
Happy Birthday to me....Happy Birthday to me....WooT...Peace!
Thursday, January 08, 2004
Rocko here....and these are my 4 essential ingredients to happiness....
Peace, Love, Soul and Music.
Tell me what ya think. Peace.
Peace, Love, Soul and Music.
Tell me what ya think. Peace.
Tuesday, December 30, 2003
I did my good deed for the year...just in time too! I helped me friend Brian work the kinks out of his web site, and now its lookin good.
Happy New Year to everyone. WooT! M00! Peace!
Happy New Year to everyone. WooT! M00! Peace!
Saturday, December 27, 2003
Hey Yo...Merry Christmas everyone and have a safe and happy New Year. I plan on getting me an ass load of fireworks and lighting up the neighborhood. Its gonna be sweet. I wish there was a place around here that sold the good stuff, like M-80's, Bottle Rockets, Cherry Bombs, Blockbusters....the good shiz.
The past few days have been fun. I hurt my finga playin football, but its cool. Me and Jesse were hangin out over the week, so its been fun....Okay, im tired so im gonna go bye-bye...Peace!
The past few days have been fun. I hurt my finga playin football, but its cool. Me and Jesse were hangin out over the week, so its been fun....Okay, im tired so im gonna go bye-bye...Peace!
